Yum... eating some chinese new year goodies now... Haha... everyone has been feeding me. Faz, daryl, me, myself and Gillian. That'a makes everybody. Ok, ok... i admit i'm just one greedy gurl. That explains the spare tyre growing... Fat cow. I shall go running with Hwee Zi tonite... to PGP coz apparently someone left her calculator there. I have no idea how.
Lots of things are piling on top of me... buried in DnD work, studies and church commitments. Dying... fading... disappearing under that pile of work. Lost. Bad... My only entertainment? Granny and her dust bunnies. Hahaha... no lah, hopefully i'm not that pathetic. Ok, got lots of work o do, so i guess it'll be a short entry. Toodle-doo!

Gillianwrote.
3:30 PM

Todae's (ok, yesterdae's) RHazzmatazz was gooooodd... Haha... Great performances and a good mix of energy levels. I take off my hat(ok, i dun haf one) to those pple involved. Tech too. All those involved have been putting in a lot of effort. So i shall say, WELL DONE!!!

Have been TRYING hard to mug... but with not much success, i think. I shall keep trying. Rather, I have to keep trying. *blueh* I must admit that hall life has it's advantages and well, memories... When events pass, they are part of a collection of these precious memories that i'll one day recall and... and smile at, laugh at, or just feel for. Great dae, i shall say.

Oh yes... Primary school reunion coming up. Hmm... that just evokes thoughts, and perhaps ambivalence. Wondering how old classmates look like... Wondering how they are as almost adults now. Time doesn't fly, but it seems to. As seconds, minutes, hours, days, weeks, years pass, everything seems far away, but definitely precious. Stupid moments, funny moments or just snapshots that we recall...

Wah.. deep thoughts again. Haha... that's me! C'est moi! Need to get back to work, so i shall end here. Remember that whether sad or happie things occur, one day, u'll look back at fond memories and just sigh, thinking that time flies...

Gillianwrote.
12:43 AM

To the one i have forgiven and can't forget

Another day,
Another moment without you.
I don't wanna say
I'm gonna stop giving what i do.

I was upset,
But that was yesterday.
My heart has forgotten
All sadness it may.

The other night, I heard your voice,
A tender, charming sound.
Then i suddenly realized,
I miss having you around.

My heart can't forget,
Your presence and your face.
My soul does remember,
Your sweet, sweet embrace.

Promise that u'll keep
Me in ur heart always,
And i'll promise to love
You all of my days...

Gillianwrote.
4:06 PM

Ok, here i am updating my blog again... my journal entries now seem to be minimal coz i dun bring it to hall. Oh well... i think i shd write in my journal too. Well, Vday's in one day... kinda. Feel a little like crap still but at least i've got friends. Thank God for friends!!!

Going out with hillie after my 2PM-4PM LECTURE (irritated), Then after that, i'm going to "Poetry Slam" by Word Forward at the Marriott. Hope it's gonna be fun... Sounds pretty interesting. Never really gone to an event like this before, so it shall be the first. KK sure has a billion and one openings and links! Way to go, DJ!

Haiz... but well... SOMEONE doesn't seem too interested in spending time with me... or am i just selfish? Dun understand problems pple face? *sigh* I feel that i've become a little spoilt recently... want pple to pamper me... but... am i selfish or have i become more sensible? I really can't think of what to think(see...) and nowadays, even listening to love songs coz me to feel sad and depressed and after tt, disgusted at myself. Like where's the independent woman? The girl who doesn't care? The girl who can do everything by herself? *blueh*

Yeah... this has all made me dependent on something i feel i can't take to always be there, physically, at least. Or do i choose to be dependent? To want to lean on something after 19 years? To be so sick and tired of living the independent way and trying (or even being successful at) to be someone who can do everythg on my own?

Questions are all i have... no answers whatsoever. Am i supposed to just go on with stuff, not caring abt anything? I don't think so, but t's what i'm doing at the moment coz i haven't the slightest idea of what to do.
Right... i shall end here. End... this entry and...

Gillianwrote.
1:39 AM

Ok, so i'm feeling like crap effectively coz of 3 pple... Shan't say who. That's the thing with blogs. Anyway, for one of them whom is pretty obvious, this song sums it up. Damn.

THE DISTANCE
By: Evan & Jaron

The sky has lost its color
The sun has turned to grey
At least that's how it feels to me
Whenever you're away
I crawl up in the corner
To watch the minutes pass
Each one brings me closer to
The time you're comin' back

I can't take the distance
I can't the miles
I can't take the time until I next see you smile
I can't take the distance
And I'm not ashamed That with every breath I take I'm callin' your name
But I can't take the distance

I still believe my feelings
But sometimes I feel too much
I make believe you're close to me
But it ain't close enough
Not nearly close enough

I can't take the distance
I can't the miles
I can't take the time until I next see you smile
I can't take the distance
And I'm not ashamed
That with every breath I take I'm callin' your name

I brave fire and I brave rain
To be by your side I'd do anything
I can't take the distance

I will go the distance
I will go the miles
That's how much you mean to me
'Cause I can't take the distance
I can't take these miles
I can't take the time until I next see you smile
I can't take the distance
And I'm not ashamed That with every breath I take I'm callin' your name
I can't take the distance

It's hard to remember
As long as you're away
When I find solace
There's only one way


Oh well... but i can truthfully say i don't feel the exact same emotions that the song tries to evoke. Sorrie? wadeva. No mood to carry myself. No mood to try to think happy thoughts. No mood.




Gillianwrote.
1:42 AM

Oh well...
another busy day... Went out with my darling Jeanne today. Hillie, dun be jealous, ok? (thick-skinned). As Vday approaches, i get more depressed. Not that i want to, but well, i guess it's natural. Why the heck do i care so much? #@%^*%#@
And now my rude exclamation has become a fake website link? Sorrie to u all reading this. Maybe u shouldn't. Me and my pathetic self. Me talking to my pathetic self. Ok, ok... self-pity ain't the way ard this.
Ok, to all my single friends out there (or those attached but somehow will be free on that day), book me before i feel more pathetic!!!


Gillianwrote.
11:28 PM

DJ - Kithsa
Poing - Dust bunny
Boing - Godzilla
*laughz* - not funny

The room on the ground.
Kithsa in the corner.
Machines of sound.
Poing's a gonner.

Big and mean
Boing's an escaper?
Is it a sin...
To use THE SUCKER?

Just 10 minutes
Poing & Boing are homeless no more.
Now they have parties
And tug-of-war.


Gillianwrote.
3:19 AM

Name: Gillian
Age: 23+
Work: at TOUCH Silent Club
Location: Singapore??

Interests: Sign lang, writing poems, reading, cycling, ice-skating & bowling(though not gd at them),hmm... loads more...

Likes: chocolate, soft toys, flowers(esp pink & white lilies),most animals, mee siam(haha), lotsa food, bubble tea, friends!!!, Schindler's List, Nanny Diaries..

Dislikes: raw onions, pig inerts, winter melon, brinjal, escargo, lotsa raw stuff, when pple don't keep their word, insects... etc etc

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All My Favorite Links::
Funtown e-cards
QuoteZ
GameZ
Orisinal Games
cute clips
pretty clothes!
Link 6


All My Main Links::
To my friends
Guestbook
Other Links


All My Friends who blog::
SaNdra
DaRyL
LynNeTte
CeYu
HiLLiyaH
GLaDys
GerMaiSe
Kenny Tan
Kiang Khiang
JEaNne
NisHita
RaCheL
JoN LeonG
YaNcHanG
RenKaNg
fLaggY(Yong Qi)
RHCF

Things that can cheer me up at least 95% of the time:
1) Chocolate
2) Bubble tea
3) Looking at the sea
4) doing fun things i've never done in my life, esp with good friends
5) a certain someone with intials Y.C.



WISH LIST:

~mogu cushion... the yellow star..? I want 100, rmbr?
Mogu


~mildly scented perfume

~bags - for sch and for going out

~clothes

~precious thoughts figurine *blink blink*

~black pants? or some kinda long pants...

~my friends!!!


~Christian book: "John Sung"

~mp3?? hmm...


~Christian books... think i want the book of bible promises

~ Christian CDs