i don't really know how i've been living the past few weeks... seems like a blur to me... going for VCF events, goind for class, doing work, going out...
these weeks have been... challenging? It's like someone has put all my insecurities in front of me and laughs wickedly seeing me cringe and hide into the imaginary hole i've dug. And at the moment i'm struggling to climb out of it... with God's help, yc's and the help of a listening ear (thanks, u know who u are).

It really is terrible to feel this way... like ur self-esteem just gets crushed into a paper ball. To find my identity in smthg more important than worldly measures.. that's my prayer.

There's always someone lurking behind trying to tell me that i'm no good. That i'm not enough. But faith is trusting what God says. If He says i'm precious, i am! And for those out there who constantly go into low self-esteem relapse, YOU'RE PRECIOUS TOO!

=) Trying to see my worth slowly... i haven't gone to the pits... I just need to seek for answers, to know that this life isn't the end.

God of all creation. God of the universe (yes, the module taught me loads...). God of the thing that's smaller than an atom. God of me.
How could there be aetheists? When u learn of the universe, the order, the cycles... the detail... i know my life is not my own.



Gillianwrote.
1:24 AM

Name: Gillian
Age: 23+
Work: at TOUCH Silent Club
Location: Singapore??

Interests: Sign lang, writing poems, reading, cycling, ice-skating & bowling(though not gd at them),hmm... loads more...

Likes: chocolate, soft toys, flowers(esp pink & white lilies),most animals, mee siam(haha), lotsa food, bubble tea, friends!!!, Schindler's List, Nanny Diaries..

Dislikes: raw onions, pig inerts, winter melon, brinjal, escargo, lotsa raw stuff, when pple don't keep their word, insects... etc etc

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All My Favorite Links::
Funtown e-cards
QuoteZ
GameZ
Orisinal Games
cute clips
pretty clothes!
Link 6


All My Main Links::
To my friends
Guestbook
Other Links


All My Friends who blog::
SaNdra
DaRyL
LynNeTte
CeYu
HiLLiyaH
GLaDys
GerMaiSe
Kenny Tan
Kiang Khiang
JEaNne
NisHita
RaCheL
JoN LeonG
YaNcHanG
RenKaNg
fLaggY(Yong Qi)
RHCF

Things that can cheer me up at least 95% of the time:
1) Chocolate
2) Bubble tea
3) Looking at the sea
4) doing fun things i've never done in my life, esp with good friends
5) a certain someone with intials Y.C.



WISH LIST:

~mogu cushion... the yellow star..? I want 100, rmbr?
Mogu


~mildly scented perfume

~bags - for sch and for going out

~clothes

~precious thoughts figurine *blink blink*

~black pants? or some kinda long pants...

~my friends!!!


~Christian book: "John Sung"

~mp3?? hmm...


~Christian books... think i want the book of bible promises

~ Christian CDs