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Saturday, December 31, 2005

Thank you darrrrlings for the pweeeetyy book of poetry. = >

Thump-tee-dee-thum
The drum of my inner body
Teet-tee-dee-teet
The flute of my inner self

Swoosh-dee-lee-swish
The dance of my mind
Tee-dee-lee-ti
The tinkling of toes

As I walk
Not knowing things around me anymore
As i stride
Not caring for smelling the flowers

The outer being,
The inner soul,
The inner heart,
All set on what is to come.

All feelings, all confusion,
All weakness and suffocation.
All... reduced to one word:
Anticipation.

Gillianwrote.
10:35 AM

Saturday, December 24, 2005

God is faithful! I've always wondered what it meant when the bible says that He will fill your cup till overflowing. Now i know. Things will be added unto you. Oh glory. By the way, Happy Birthday to the oe above and Merry Christmas to everyone else.

By the way... to everyone out there, love ain't that simple. Hahahahaha...
Happy holidays!

Gillianwrote.
3:56 PM

Friday, December 23, 2005

Dedicated to God, my faithful Lord:

Everything was a blur
Tired, frustrated
Everything so unclear
Tears generated

Still i tried
Kept on trying
Many times sighed
But on you relying

Lay aside my work
Though he was constantly screaming
'Come finish it!'
I went to You submitting

And in all things
You were faithful
My shepherd,
My cup full

My Lord You are
Beyond which words can describe
Beyond human language
Or that any picture can prescribe

My God Your love
Goes further than the horizon
Deeper than the oceans
To Your only Son

And it is at that cross, I lay my life
A willing sacrifice
To die before You everyday
To die before the Christ

I lay my life now
At Your feet
Surrender all,
How hard i weep

Your grace is sufficient for me
In You I find release
For all was and is Yours
You take or give as you please

Yet You love me and give unto me as if You are not God. As if You are my servant. Died for me as if You were my slave. But the great things You do, Your power and authority, Your wisom all show me that You indeed are Lord God. That You are my Jehovah. That You are my Saviour. For without You, I am nothing. You've showed me that. Yet, You gave me a choice.

There is no greater love
Than the love of the Father
There is no greater love
Than the one who died for me
There is no greater love
Than my Saviour's
The greatest love in history.
Amen.

Gillianwrote.
10:46 PM

Here's the link to my Beijing photos for all you pals who are interested. Note that there are 166photos and so u need a minimum amount of time to be able to view all. Hahaha... here goes:

http://photos.yahoo.com/ggsw

Another thing to note: No, i do not look like my sis and yes, i'm not photogenic. Yes, my sis is cute and yes my brother is supposed to be good looking. (sheesh, i think they stole some of the genes that were supposed to be for me) Enjoy the scenery though.

Gillianwrote.
11:35 AM

Monday, December 19, 2005

Just came back from Beijing yesterday. Was due to be back only on the 19th night, but my poor bro sprained his back while we were skiing, so home we came. Before i left for Beijing, i conducted a bible study with 2 of my 'kids'. Amazing how there was still stuff to learn about Daniel even after being through long discussions of Daniel during the anntic camp. God amazes me. Often we forget that Daniel was royalty (beginning of chapt 1). To humble himself and be obedient to God such that he gave up his so-called royal food, meat, and to just eat vegetables and drink water was indeed a great test of his obedience and humility before the Lord.
One thing i would like for all you Christians out there to pray for me about is for joy. Joy in serving God, joy in teaching my 'kids', joy in doing everything and doing everythign for God. In His presence, there is fullness of joy. Indeed i want to pray that His presence be with me always that i might also have joy.
My trip to Beijing was good... Great wall, skiing, freshwater pearls, the below 0 temperatures, the palaces etc etc... still... it kind of left me a little empty... dunno why. And... i'm not sure if it is true... but i feel that my family lacks faith in God. That i need prayer too. Yes, they pray, but the prayers seem empty. Somehow...
I'm feeling a deep sense of emptiness... i know i need to talk to Him and so that's what i'm going to do now. So jon, about that chain thing... i guess i'll do it in another posting. Haha.
For all out there... if only you had faith as small as a mustard seed, you can tell the mountain "be thou cast into the sea" and it shall be done for you. Sometimes, we make God too small in our eyes. Sometimes... we don't find that we mean it when we sing "i love You Lord", Think about it. Reflection, i've learnt, is good for the soul.Thyen, pray.

Gillianwrote.
12:08 AM

Sunday, December 11, 2005

Came back from Anntic Camp yesterday. It was goooooood. Hee... Really... the best camp ever. Really made me realize a lot, especially how much i fall short of godly people, what more God Himself... Also, the sudden realization of how great He is and how sometimes i rob Him of glory that should be His. Reminders of how His love is indeed unconditional and what it means to worship wholeheartedly, meaning what you sing.
I did my reflection on the last day at the garden... for those who were at Anntic, you will know where. And as i sang a song in church today, about God being near... i wondered if He was there sitting next to me in that garden... sitting next to me in the workshops... sitting next to me as i worshipped Him... sitting there as we shared during bible study...

My Lord my God... You are like no other... This is the reason why i long to dwell in Your presence and be absorbed in worship... It is only when we feel You and when we read Your word and You reveal Yourself to us that we know that You are God.

By the way, Marx... if opium could last forever and it it could command so much faith... and it works... and it gave eternal life, i might actually consider calling it god.
U so screwed the screw is jealous and the screwdriver shivers in fear.
Ok, so u did contribute to the evaluation of society, but ur most famous phrase is the most flawed. Think about it, dude.

Oh well... I shall practice patience... not tolerance... for tolerance is just the building up of anger. Patience is out of love... Love is patient, love is kind. It does not boast, it does not envy, it is not self-seeking. Ok, not sure if i quoted the bible right, but that is what i understand. That is what i learnt. That is what i believe. And... Agape love is higher, stronger, richer... more perfect.

Gillianwrote.
10:07 PM