-ME-

Friday, September 28, 2007

It's one of those days where i just feel mildly depressed. There probably is a reason, but yeah... blogs are just too public.
Sometimes.. i think i place too much expectation on others and myself. I think it's not right, but i can't help asking why things are not another way; "better". The number of 'why's i ask is almost uncountable. I get angry with myself sometimes coz of this.

Random stuff:
1) Oh well... went shopping on wed with nette!! Finally got my sports shoes! Riddle (blame nette is it's not funny): what happens when a cow goes to Antratica? Neu-bei-leng-si (new balance). That's the brand of me shoes! (sorry, lazy to take pic, but if anyone wants to go running........)

2) Bored to death at home now... trying to study and trying to qualify to enter nerdland with debs.

3) I had a really weird dream last night. I dreamt i was walking home from somewhere at night. And then i saw pink panther in front of me striding. So i went "de-dem.de-dem. de-dem-de-dem-de-dem-de-dem-de-dem.... tededeedum" (the pink panther tune) He looked at me from the corner of his eye, gave me a look then ignored me until i caught up with him.
Then we were walking into a tunnel and diagonally below us was another tunnel. A man looked up from the tunnel and somehow or other (coz i don't recall pinky talking) i knew he was after pink panther. It was easy to spot pink panther coz... well, he is bright pink. Then i took out my pencilcase, decided that i could not use my yellow highlighter to paint pink panther coz it would be even brighter than his current pink, so threw my highlighter away. sadly, the dream ends there.
It was hilarious. I woke up not knowing if i should laugh. It's weird.
That's so much amusement i had for today. Like i said, it was a pretty boring day. Toodles!

Gillianwrote.
7:39 PM

Thursday, September 20, 2007

The girl was swept off her feet,

Onto a gallant horse.

Behind Prince Charming was her seat,

Started her life's new course.

A Princess with many robes,

Yet humble sweet and true;

A castle of many nodes,

All hers, the little pretty fool.

Amongst flowers and gardens she dwell,

With a prince no less than those stories tell.

Any price for this life no one would sell,

At the end t'was always well.

Her childish dreams, all fulfilled;

No need for practicality.

What a million keep longing for,

It was this young thing's reality.

Oh shame those fairytales!

For they don't fail to give false hope.

To the many who once believed it could be true,

For it, in the dark they still grope.

The romantic disappointed. again.

Gillianwrote.
11:45 PM

Wednesday, September 19, 2007

Happy birthday (belated) to my friends! To Kwok, Yiling and Tabby! Hope u all enjoyed urselves... although yiling, i know u spent ur bday doing work... poor girl.

Anyway, i must say that i'm touched! By some guys who i think are really gentlemanly. Shall i name them? Ok lah, for their own benefit coz they're both not attached! haha... soon wen and Doug Yeap! Touched coz they ask whether i'm home safely or not after going out till late. Hmm... why are these guys not attached? I have no idea! I think i need to start match-making service for my nice girl friends and nice guy friends liao. Hahahaa...

So *ahem* friends, u know who to call... =p

Jumping to another topic, i'm hoping tha i'll make full use of the upcoming sem break! I have no idea what to do for my child abnormal psych assignment! Have to observe kids and somehow link it to a journal article... like... help!

Oh well... all that rambling... Just had dinner with yiling, soon wen and chinglu... so nice. Hey pple, i wanna go out with u guys again. Kinda the first yah? But i hope it won't be the last! =)
Sorry about the blurness, lu... i didn't know what u all wanted me to do with our dear bday girl. Heh... ok lah... bad excuse. I'm just blur. I'm sure my psych friends will attest to that too.

Alrighty... that's all, folks! I shall stop rambling. But it shows i'm a little bit more light hearted coz i dun have any deadlines soon. =)

Gillianwrote.
11:32 PM

Sunday, September 16, 2007

For my friend who msged me saying that you were feeling dry... i feel a little lost sometimes as to my spirituality and how close i am to God i really can't tell... I needed this song and perhaps you do too.

Lord you seem so far away

A milliion miles or more it seems today

And though i haven't lost my faith

I must confess right now

That it's hard for me to pray

But i don't know what to say

And i don't know where to start

But as You give the grace

With all that's in my heart

I will sing

I will praise

Even in my darkest hour

Through the sorrow and the pain

I will sing

I will praise

Lift my hands and honour You

Because Your word is true

I will sing

Lord it's hard for me to see

All the thoughts and plans You have for me

But i will put my trust in You

Knowing that You died to set me free

But i don't know what to say

And i don't know where to start

But as You give the grace

With all that's in my heart

Gillianwrote.
10:52 PM

How many times were we too smart for out own good?
How many times did we think our way was better?
How many times did we rely soley on our mood?
How many times did we despise prayer?

So many times you've proven me wrong
So many times You were right.
So many times You told me all along
But i'd pretend it wasn't within my sight.

You've given me so many chances
But I couldn't care to remember
You've always broke my defences
But stubbornly I said "My way is better"

Forgive me for my foolishness
Forgive me for my pride
Help me know your great-ness
Your love that's so wide
Forgive me for my lack of wisdom
Forgive me for my ways
Keep me in Your holy kingdom
All my numbered days

Gillianwrote.
10:37 PM

Saturday, September 08, 2007

Your Grace Is Sufficient

Integrity's Hosanna! Music/ASCAP

Your grace is sufficient for me

Your strength is made perfect

When I am weak

All that I cling to

I lay at Your feet

Your grace is sufficient for me

I'm no longer striving

To merit Your love

I rest in Your promise to me

That all of my sins have

Been washed in Your blood

Your mercy is all that I need

You see me as righteous

Because of the blood

That made the atonement for me

Your mercy has triumphed

Where I should be judged

So now by Your grace I am free

Gillianwrote.
9:31 PM