Saturday, March 27, 2004
Alot has happned since the last time i updated my blog. Especially since the 18th of March. Don't know how to express it better than a poem, so here goes...
U TOOK IT
MY HEART WAS ALREADY SKIPPING BEATS BEFORE i SAW U.
i GUESS IT WAS BECAUSE i KNEW WHY i WENT.
i DON'T KNOW IF U FELT THE SAME WAY TOO,
MAYBE THE WHOLE THING WAS HEAVEN SENT.
THEN i MET U.
SOMEONE WHOM I DIDN'T KNOW...
YET.
ONLY i WAS SHY.
EVEN NOW U THINK SO.
i STILL REMEMBER i DID SOMETHING WRONG.
i DON'T KNOW WHY i DID IT.
BUT WHAT'S DONE IS GONE;
i THANK GOD WE GOT TO MEET.
i WISH i AM NOT WHAT i AM SOMETIMES;
i WISH i COULD BE MORE
THAN JUST A SHY GIRL WHO'S NOT BRIGHT AT ALL,
AND OH, i'M NOT BEING SORE.
SOMETIMES i WONDER DEEP WITHIN ME...
HAVE U LOVED me ALL ALONG?
REALLY, WHAT DO U SEE?
WITH U, IS THERE SOMETHING WRONG?
i KNOW WHAT i SEE,
THOUGH AT THE MOMENT MY VISION'S BLURRY.
ONE WHO'S MIND IS COMPLEX,
WHO'S AMAZINGLY FUNNY.
COMPLEMENT me?
THINK U SHOULDN'T,
MAYBE U SHOULD.
i STILL DON'T KNOW.
MAYBE I DO HAVE THE 'EVIL SIDE',
MAYBE i DON'T.
PEOPLE TELL ME,
"IF HE LOVES U, HE'LL LIKE u AS u ARE".
AND U DO AND i'M STILL SHY
AND U STILL DO,
BUT WE WANT ME TO OPEN LIKE THE RED SEA...
it SEEMS IMPOSSIBLE,
BUT MAYBE THIS WAY IT CAN BE.
TELL me, WHY DO U LOVE me?
'COZ WHEN I LOOK INTO THE MIRROR
i SEE NOTHING MUCH. TRULY.
AN AVERAGE FACE, THAT'S ALL.
I'M NICE, MAYBE.
MAYBE THAT'S ALL...
ALL TO me.
Me, me...
NOTHING ELSE?
i DON'T MAKE PEOPLE LAUGH MUCH,
SOMETIMES i'M TOO INSECURE.
I WANT TO SAY THINGS,
BUT i JUST CAN'T.
i WRITE. USELESS.
'COZ IT SEEMS SO INSINCERE,
THOUGH AGAIN, i JUST CAN'T HELP IT.
PERHAPS I WAS AFRAID OF GETTING HURT.
I ALWAYS BACKED DOWN...
BUT FOR U... I ALMOST DID...
BUT U WALKED FURTHER INSTEAD OF DOING THE SAME....
I GUESS THAT IS WHAT i NEED.
i NEED THE WAY U LOVE me.
giL
Gillianwrote.
12:46 PM
