Saturday, March 12, 2005
The EML concert is over!!! Yay! And it went quite well for me... in terms of timing, remembering the poem and calmness, though i was jittery and nervous throughout the concert. Mine was the last item, for those who didn't know. Hmm... my sis said that because of the mike, i looked like i had 2 ears when i bent down. Ok, so i was minnie mouse for a while (some guinea pi would call that retribution), and i forgot to put foundation(which i took so much effort to borrow) on the red dot on my nose, but the impt thing to me was that i did my part well. So... YAY!
Now i can remember this poem (though i think this is not my favourite poem). Honestly, i dunno which is my favourite poem. Of things that i do, none are favourite to me in that sense. As in... i tend to prefer other pple's work. Hmmm... And Mira's juat such a sweetie... Rach was right.
I've been well.. thinking, like i always do... not about factual stuff or general knowledge blah blahs, but about... human nature? I feel that many pple tend to judge others too quickly. Once u see a person in a particular light (esp negative one), it's hard to change one's perspective. It's like that. Life's like that. I promise myself to try never to be too judgemental. That's me. I have no talents... no wordly/secular/materialistic talents... but perhaps, after that cell group session, i really began to think of what my talents were. I found put that perhaps God made me for something more. Something most peoplke can't achieve. He makes me sensitive to things that most people are not sensitive to. It's so... weird? Sometimes, i'm amazed by myself... by what i think and then do... Hhhmmmmmmmmmm.............
So i have a stats test on Friday. Shd be studying, but thought i'd update my blog 1st. Lemme revise the counting: 6 days to DnD, 5 days to stats test and 7 days to..................
Oh well.. dunno if it's important anymore.
Hope i get my astig 275 contact lenses before DnD, or i'm afraid that due to my 'job' and position, i might have to look ugly and wear my glasses. Hee.... what am i wearing for DnD? I dunno!!! Shd i wear what i wore for TJ grad nite? hmmm... or... anyone has a pwetty dress to lend me??? Nette??? So troublesome being a gurl...
Ok, i sahall now type the poem that i recited today, by memory. Here goes (title: The Depth of Emptiness... was supposed to be named smthg else, but.... haha... ok, dun u go feeling guilty, son.)
Here goes:
The black sky above me.
Deep. Deeper than love, perhaps.
Not knowing what is in it.
Not knowing what is beyond.
Not knowing what I'm going through.
Deep. Beyond all the earth.
I get sucked into the blackhole.
I am not lost in space, but in vacuum.
Nothingness. I feel numb.
Then, i feel my eyes moist.
I want to be merged with the night sky,
To become thin air
Or...
Perhaps a star? The moon?
Then i can see him,
Every night.
But then...
I turn away...
When it is day, i demand it be night.
When night, i demand day.
But yet, he is my ruler of the sky.
Just earth's sky.
Perhaps...
I shall look beyond.
Isolated.
A gothic castle,
But where dreams may
Very well come true.
And i shall be the princess of my world.
Yay! Haha... a bit cheem lah, huh? Lit students can use to do PC. Muahahahahaha...
Ok, i shall end here. Little silly me.
Gillianwrote.
11:06 PM
