I can only ask God why this is happening... At certain points, i fail to believe that this could happen. Don't know what happened or what didn't happen. To the person involved in this, i don't know how to go about this, i'm as confused as you are. Still, like i said, i cannot find a reason to say that i have no part in any of this because relationships involve responses and it takes two hands to clap. I am not alright but i hope that things will turn out to be as we try, even if and when either party doesn't feel like it.
I will say that i don't know if i may, for the next few times we meet seem as if i'm trying too hard; but i question myself whether in effect it really is just myself letting my fun side have a chance coz i know that i tend to be fun with fun people but more serious with serious pple. I honestly have never let my fun side have a chance but always tried to force my head over my heart in everything, which makes me 'rationalize' that what i'm doing is stupid even though i know i'll enjoy it and really make myself more happy and joyful.
For friends like lynnette, u really are the symbol of fun and i must say that u have taught me what fun is like. I'm uptight most of the time and because of what has happened, i really find the need to let my hair down and enjoy that crazy part of me which is locked up somewhere in me by my logical reason and so-called mature self. Oh... people who do know me know that i have a fun streak somewhere that can pop out randomly.
I just feel so weird now... confused. I don't know what to do. Can fun really be natural for me? I have no answers and the only thing i know i can do is to trust God. "All things work for the good of those who love Him." It's hard for me to trust, but i'll try... It's hard for me to think positively, but i'll try... It's hard for me to even think of these thing, but i'll do it and pray about it and try to do what i can about it. And tough it's hard, it does take 2 hands to clap and so i hope you'll try too. May God be with us, in us and work in us for His glory.

Gillianwrote.
10:32 AM

Name: Gillian
Age: 23+
Work: at TOUCH Silent Club
Location: Singapore??

Interests: Sign lang, writing poems, reading, cycling, ice-skating & bowling(though not gd at them),hmm... loads more...

Likes: chocolate, soft toys, flowers(esp pink & white lilies),most animals, mee siam(haha), lotsa food, bubble tea, friends!!!, Schindler's List, Nanny Diaries..

Dislikes: raw onions, pig inerts, winter melon, brinjal, escargo, lotsa raw stuff, when pple don't keep their word, insects... etc etc

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All My Favorite Links::
Funtown e-cards
QuoteZ
GameZ
Orisinal Games
cute clips
pretty clothes!
Link 6


All My Main Links::
To my friends
Guestbook
Other Links


All My Friends who blog::
SaNdra
DaRyL
LynNeTte
CeYu
HiLLiyaH
GLaDys
GerMaiSe
Kenny Tan
Kiang Khiang
JEaNne
NisHita
RaCheL
JoN LeonG
YaNcHanG
RenKaNg
fLaggY(Yong Qi)
RHCF

Things that can cheer me up at least 95% of the time:
1) Chocolate
2) Bubble tea
3) Looking at the sea
4) doing fun things i've never done in my life, esp with good friends
5) a certain someone with intials Y.C.



WISH LIST:

~mogu cushion... the yellow star..? I want 100, rmbr?
Mogu


~mildly scented perfume

~bags - for sch and for going out

~clothes

~precious thoughts figurine *blink blink*

~black pants? or some kinda long pants...

~my friends!!!


~Christian book: "John Sung"

~mp3?? hmm...


~Christian books... think i want the book of bible promises

~ Christian CDs